Needing a map

The philosophy and otherwise irrelevant ramblings of a struggling poet.

Tuesday, April 29, 2003

Well, it's official. Back by popular demand is the Staff Cast of Clue: The Musical. Singing and dancing (well, a waltz anyway.) It should be very fun. I really enjoyed it the first time.

Friday, April 25, 2003

Well, we did our performance, and it was a huge success. As a matter of fact, we may be doing an encore performance next week during the evening so that the teachers who did not get to see it will get to see it.

We had to cut a lot out of the show, including my big solo, but if we do another performance, that will be back in there. It went really well, and I'm very happy about it.

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

Tomorrow I get to make a fool of myself in front of most of the students in the staff cast production of Clue the Musical. I'm having a lot of fun in the show. It's making me realize how much I miss being in theatre, and music.

I hope everything goes well. I'm going to be belting out notes that I haven't sung in front of anyone except my best friend.

Wish me luck everyone.

Sunday, April 20, 2003

Sometimes I forget that not everyone grew up almost living in a church. I'm usually reminded when I confess to someone how little I know about evolution, and all the related aspects of it. That goes for most of the sciences actually. Going to a very very small Christian school is not beneficial to certain parts of one's education.

This summer I went to New York City for the first time. Of course, I experienced many many many new things. One of them was walking throught the Natural History Museum with someone who actually could explain some of the things that my education skipped. Oddly, when put in the situation where I could have had many of my questions answered, I couldn't think of anything. Periodically, my companion on that excursion reminds me that I can still ask him all the questions I want. I still can't think of any. Perhaps one day I will just tell him to start at the beginning and explain it all. That might take a while though.

Sometimes I feel a bit behind the world because of the gaps in my education, and in my popular culture knowledge. My friends refer to everything that happened in the 80's as "Lisa's Bubble." They have tried to fill in the gaps in recent years. I have learned a good bit about pop music from the 80's. I'm still working on the TV shows, and the news bits.

Tuesday, April 15, 2003

Spirit

You woke me
Again
Last night
With a soft gentle sigh
I waited in the dark
For you
To come through
Traipsing
Tiptoeing
Even just walking
But there
Peering out the window
Alone
And peaceful
I sat until morning
When you left
I never saw you

They never understood why I cried
After all, it was over and
He was home.
Standing, watching, shaking their heads
Lying cross armed
The circle of glass shattered
Looking out in a rain I never felt
Hearing voices I knew and never met.
They never understood why I laughed
After all he was
Gone

Monday, April 14, 2003

Well, I don't want to roast anyone today. Everything is going ok.

So, I tentatively put out my nice face for the day, hoping that I have no reason to be mean. I am not very good at being mean, so I try not to do it for long.

My trips are coming along nicely. We have plotted out the trips, and have determined how much I'm going to be traveling....A LOT. Fortunately, I have a lot of places that I can stay for free.../cheer for friends.

Next I get to start editing my poetry a lot!!! It will be a long drawn out process, but I think it will be worth it when I get done. I'm sure I will go through the phases of believing that I'm a horrible writer and have no business trying to go to school for it. I may post some of my poems on here periodically so that everyone can comment on them.

Friday, April 11, 2003

Ok, Yeah, I needed to blog.

TODAY'S SPECIAL: Roast Teenager

Really, I DO love my job. Sometimes I'm not sure if it's the kids or the teacher that makes me mad more though.

This particular day, it's the kids. One of them thinks he can lie to me about anything and I will automatically believe him, becuase quite clearly I'm an idiot. "Of course {{insert name of child here}}, I completely believe that Ms. Gooden said you can use the book to check your own answers. I'm not going to pay any attention whatsoever to the blank spaces on that page. You just keep writing in the answers, ok dear?" Um...NO

Another believes that because I have breasts, I'm incompetent. As one would imagine, that does not go over well with me. Number one, being female has nothing to do with competency. Number two, I have a lovely diploma on my wall that I worked very hard for that indicates that I can tell him to sit his ass down, shut up, and listen to me. Number three, I don't care if his dad doesn't let his mom speak her mind, he's not going to treat me like I should be bowing to his every whim and fancy. Everytime I give him instructions, be it do this, or don't do that, he acts like I'm, in his words "copping attitude." Children cop attitudes with adults. Employees cop attitudes with employers. Telling him to get off my computer, and stay off my computer is not, in any way, shape, or form..."copping attitude."

AND FINALLY:

My roomates can tell you that it is not a good idea to sneak up on me. I tend to swing first and ask questions later. Working in a school I have to try to control the impulse to knock someone out when they try to startle me. At some point next week, I will probably be getting bailed out of jail because one or the other of the above mentioned students think that it is fun to do that, and they will land on their asses about 3 feet behind me.

Ok, I think I'm done now.

Wednesday, April 09, 2003

My poor neglected blog.

I've been quite busy since I came back home, so I haven't really had the energy to write on here.

Well, I have my next trip planned out. However, to see all the schools I wanted to see at one time will be about 4500 miles of driving. So, I'm thinking I might want to break it up into smaller trips. I'm just not sure how to do that yet.

The studen who is helping me plan this is enjoying his project. He gets to play on the computer and he gets a chance to do something sort of practical. He's not just answering questions out of a book, so it makes him happy. He's doing a very good job too. We are starting on the math portion of this next week. Gas mileage, and accomodations, and all.

In other news, I found out that I need a master cylinder for my car. To get it changed it will be $300 that I don't have. So, it looks like I may be learning how to change a master cylinder....I can do it!! I can do anything.

All told, the estimated total cost for repairs on my car is going to be about $800. Hopefully I can come up with something for it.

That's about it for now.

Tuesday, April 01, 2003

Well, I'm back home now. It was a long trip, but I enjoyed it. Now I have to plan the trips for the rest of the graduate schools I'm going to be visiting. That will be a long process. However, I talked to my boss, and there is a student in my class who just so happens to need a credit in geography, and in math, so he's going to help me plan my trips. He'll have to tell me how to get to all the cities, and how much it will cost me to get there, etc. It will be good for him, and will take a load off my mind.

Ah, the joys of working in a class room.